Dear you,
I write this to iron off everything twist in mind. To let things away and faded by time. i know that things aren’t happen as we wish it to be. I wish that I didn’t think about you as often as I do. Because now you’re just my past. I tell myself I don’t care. I tell myself that you are not a matter. I tell myself that I’m done. But deep down here, i know none of that is true. And yet, i started to realise it when you walked out in my life, you never look back. You had built new memories then slowly you had forgotten about me. And it felt like i feel like i’m falling endlessly towards an endless and bottomless pit of pain. One thing i want you to notice about is that i love you beyond everything and i’m really into you. yet time has come to put the past where it belongs, i have to let you go for someone who can promise happiness in your life..it had to end this way . Love is lost, and we can’t figure why maybe it really is about time that we finally made up our minds. I haven’t found the new you cause the truth is,if I could pick anybody I would still pick you. I’ll always keep you close in my heart. </3
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2 months ago)
Hello Tumblr! It’s been a while i didn’t update anything here. I try to allocate extra time in daily schedule to update this thing, but, ended up with none at last. My bad the long hush. Life got disarray lately, with lotsa quiz, test, assignment, presentation and list goes on and on. Life has given my obstacles but still I bite my tongue say it’s wonderful. I try to keep on motivate myself over and over again to grasp a little more of zest and tenacity in continue breathing for each day. On the other note, Chinese New Year holiday is only just for 4 days and it is hopeless to go back to hometown. Oh world, i miss Miri!
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4 months ago)
The elan vital.
Hello and hye. Sorry for the long silence. Have you ever feel the hardness in giving explanation to a kid who asked you ‘why I’m not in my parents’ wedding photos?’ where everything is beyond a word and trying your best to tell them but end up with none?. Seriously I have no idea where and how to start writing this post. So yeah, for random topics, after couple of months forcing to get away these fingertips from touching this keyboard, tons of stories queued up in my mind. Semester 1 has taught me everything. As a starting point of uni life, it was something that is too value to be hold as a sweet memory in life. I remember everything from that semester down to the smallest details. I relive it often in my mind, bringing it back to life and I realize that when I do, I always feel a strange combination of joy and sadness. Only in words, all I could say is it was good all the way throughout the time and ended in a very harsh way. Somehow, I wish I could back to the time, against the clock direction slowly ticking backward and take all the sadness away. My story is so complicated to be simplified through someone else’s eye to get amazed at the treasure hidden within. All in all, it was everything under a matter of life and friendship. I met someone (a new close friend for sure) at the beginning of semester, she was a really really really really a good friend. We went to class together, sleepover at her hostel, iftar during Ramadhan and shared umpteen bazillion of story and yet that makes why we being so close. As the hand of clock rotating forward, I am going to miss her and thanks to Allah for giving me a chance to meet such a kind hearted friend. She will be going off to UK soon and I hope all the best for her and hope that she will excel in her studies. Okay, stop regretting the past because there was a time when the world was bitter.
Semester 2 went okay so far.. Yeah, alone again. Though there are couple of close friends, but,things never be the same anymore. Get it? Anymore! I’m trying to avoid being super close to my friend cause they are all opportunist and judgmental jerk and love being sarcastic. Some of them, note that! Which I hate the most. I don’t know why on earth I should meet them. Screw u bitch. A smell of fresh pile for tons of assignments need to be done by this week. 7 papers to get highlighted for final exam and I hope I can strive for it. Dean’s list for this semester insya-Allah. Yeah,that’s my target. Self revision would help the most I reckoned. That’s all. Bye.
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5 months ago)
hye,
just drop here to say
im not in the right mood to update my tumblr. kbye. :)
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7 months ago)
Dear best friend, every time I get a text I hope it’s from you. Every time my phone rings, I hope it’s you. Every time I dream, I pray it will be about you. I believe I’m in love with you, and every time I think about it, I realize: You. Don’t. Care.
